Honor recently turned 5 months old. Yet I feel like I've known her for years. Although she can't utter a word (actually, I swear she says "umma", Korean word for mom, whenever she is upset), it's as if her eyes say everything I need to know.
I want to remember every single second I spend with her and I know that's impossible. What I can do is from time to time, jot down some things I don't ever want to forget about Honor and motherhood. Is it strange that writing this post makes me all so very emotional?! I have a sneaking suspicion other moms will understand where I'm coming from :)
I don't want to forget...
- the sour milk smell in Honor's mouth ...
- the most peaceful and angelic look on her face when she sleeps...
- the way Honor looks around, as if she's got a serious case of FOMO ...
- the way she lights up when she sees her dad... and her dad's face (complete utter elation) upon seeing Honor smile... one day, those two will gang up on me for sure!
- the shy smile she used to have when she started smiling (oh gosh, when was that? 8 weeks?)...
- her laughter, which for now, is a series of brief chuckles...
- her softest of softest hair...
- her long fingers all stretched out like jazz fingers when she sleeps...
- how much Honor loves her jumperoo... (very much!)
- the way she flails her arms when she gets excited...
- her "Ahhhahhhhahhhhh" babble..
- the little "hmm..." and "hahhhhh" sighs she lets out while sleeping...
- the way she smells - so clean and milky...
- me putting on Honor's baby lotion so that I can smell like her...
- her serious case of thumb sucking...
- her toots!!! she has not a care in the world when she toots!!
I think I can go on and on, but the above are some of the most precious moments I never want to forget.
p.s. The photos were taken when Honor turned 100 days old, which is a big deal in Korea and almost always celebrated. With us living so far from our family (they are east coasters), we decided it's more appropriate for our family get together later in October when Honor turns one. A pretty bad snowstorm hit the town that week, so a small get together we planned with some close friends in town got cancelled. I decided we should at least get some professional photos taken to memorialize the day. And boy, did Honor behave!!! She was such a ham!! Afterwards, we went out for some frozen yogurt and pizza at Wholefoods. It was simply one of the most sublime days of my life.
