Why am I back here? I want to document some things worth remembering in my life. At some point, sharing personal photos and life events on this blog felt a bit like having a reality show... and I kept wondering if my blog was like one of those self-absorbed reality shows... But I kept coming back to this big desire in my heart to document, remember and cherish the small as well as big moments in my life.
So, here I am! I will be posting some throwback photos just to recap what's been happening to me since I last wrote here. And I don't care what anyone thinks or says about this blog. I'm here writing for myself.
I actually found out on February 14th of all days. I used one of those +/- sign thingies and the + sign was really light, so I wasn't 100% sure. I made the hubs get one of these digital testing kits. If you ever need to check, just get the digital thingie.
This was one of the earlier ultrasound photos of our baby girl. Always a HUGE moment for any pregnant moms.
I suffered from morning sickness until week 18. All I could eat were some fruits, plain bagels, and a lot of neng myun (cold buckwheat noodle dish) and kimchi (everyone knows what this is, right?!!).
Once the morning sickness passed, the rest of my second trimester and the beginning of third trimester were totally blissful (minus the moving from PA to CO in the midst of second trimester - don't do it if you can help it!!). Ugh - then the latter part of third trimester hit me like a brick, like on a daily basis. The photo above is me, fully preggo, 9 days before I gave birth on October 25, 2015. What this photo doesn't show are the back aches, sleepless nights, restless leg syndrome, gum infection, and anxiety about my career (more on that later)+ money+ health + giving birth + raising a baby, etc. etc. But all that was totally worth suffering because in the end, I gained the most amazing experience and gift in my life - baby Honor Young Metz:
Hubs and I call Honor our best attorney work product to date. I mean look at that full head of hair! Clear eyes! Fast moving strong arms!
We fall in love with Honor more and more every day. The kind of love parenthood brings is indescribable in words. And if I think about it too much, I get emotional and start crying. I can't believe my little plus sign on a plastic stick turned into this beautiful angel. She's a miracle. All babies are. And for their sake, I hope this world will continue to have more good than bad and lightness than darkness.